Im not one to be O poor me... I think its important to be honest about what is going on inside me. I have alot of regrets, and dont want to keep making regrets. I want my family to see me hapy, and be happy children. I hate that my ten yr old says he wants to be like the families on T.V. How do i say thats not real, when it is in some cases. How do i explain to them that our life is different. They deserve to be thought about and loved by more than just me. # boys, i woonder how this will effect there life. Will i be able to send them on there way in life with all they need to be there best ? Or will they grow up with issues passed down on them as i was.
Please pray for me and my family!!!! I have shared with you things that i have not told anyone. There is really no one to talk to. P.S I was very proud, and felt weak and strong at the same time as i spread my moms ashes. It was a very grown up thing to do, and im glad i stepped up and did it. I know she is not suffering, and i pray God allows her to look down on me!!!!
